10175056_781918951831989_5110413486230406466_nI took my son Connor to swimming practice today and while I watched him swim I was listening to my iPod. I have a playlist of songs on it, I call it my ‘fave’, it has over 2,000 songs in it and it plays randomly. When ‘I Believe’ by Diamond Rio came on it hit me hard, and I don’t know why. While I was watching my son doing freestyle there were tears streaming down my face. What the heck?

This ‘grief’ thing is just bizarre. I rarely think of Alex and cry anymore, good gosh, it has been nearly 20 years since his death, but sometimes feelings resurface and I am a mess. It is what it is, I guess. It’s ‘okay’ I tell myself. I am human.

Here’s some of the lyrics that got to me and gave me chills as if angels were really hugging me:

Forever, you’re a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
I will hold you even longer if I can

Oh, the people who don’t see the most
See that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
Cause I believe, oh I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, oh I believe

I believe!

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