Can you remember a time in your life when you felt completely helpless? I do. It was the day when a Doctor escorted us into a small room in the hospital after Nicky was born and told us the grim news that not only our newborn son had a rare, extremely painful incurable disorder, but that he would most likely not see his first birthday. I was in shock. Only 19 months earlier I had a baby that was stillbornRead More →

Almost every day, as I walk by Nicky or get him something, I notice he’s busy watching a “how to” video on how to “cook” something. When he was younger, he would often help me make the cupcake batter or would insist in putting the batter in the cupcake liners or would help putting the sprinklers on. He would be so excited to eat a fresh cupcake, and I would make sure I would make some kind of frosting of his likingRead More →

Feel free to save them and share! To save the bigger version of the image, click on the image first to load it, then right click to save image. Never bad mouth the mother or father of your children to them. Never use your children against their other parent. NEVER! Be the first to say you’re sorry. Laugh until you cry and Love with all your heart. When you see someone suffering, don’t think for a minute that their lifeRead More →

October 1998 – This is my dad’s absolute favorite photo with Nicky, taken at the Milan airport in Italy on the day we were flying back home to Phoenix. Nicky was almost 2 years old. I know it may seem bizarre since they are giving us their back, but dad spent a great deal of time teaching Nicky to walk and just loving him and would follow him around everywhere. Til this day he’s extremely fond of him even thoughRead More →

One of the big differences I noticed between the me before I was a mom (and a special need mom at that) and after is how I started isolating myself. And how I find myself still doing it. Aside calling my parents once a week, I never call anyone. Ever. Oh yes, I return texts (my favorite mode of communication), but aside that… calling… ugh. It’s like pulling teeth. I dread it like nothing else. I didn’t start to isolateRead More →

It seems to me that every time I turn on the news lately there is someone telling me I should fear something. I ought to fear this, be angry at that and hate the other. I also noticed that the people that buy into this way of thinking are extremely depressed, suffer from anxiety or are somewhat… how shall I say this? A bit egotistical. Everyone is out to “get them”. Just this morning I read the news of aRead More →

I am so glad Nicky and I survived last week because it was exhausting. Monday and Tuesday I drove us to Stanford and back with an overnight stay. One way is 6 hours. I was trying to explain to my parents how amazing but tiring this trip is for us. I love driving, always did. We have our “stops”, our routines. I’ve come to know certain rest areas like the back of my hand, and certain truck stops are very coolRead More →

Feel free to save them and share! To save the bigger version of the image, click on the image first to load it, then right click to save image. EB is one of those conditions that needs to be SEEN to be understood. I wanted to be known for what I LOVED, not for what I hated. I suppose in this life we need to recognize who cares about us and make sure to spend time with them. Anyone thatRead More →