For many years to come we survived on donated bandages or, worse, washed and re-used bandages. It’s heartbreaking for everyone to see my son not only suffering but deteriorating before our very eyes.  The death of my child changed me in ways I cannot ever explain nor express the monumental importance of. When you hear a bereaved mom mention the name of their child in heaven, just listen. I will continue to fight, just as all parents on this journey do. We will fight on all levels, with all the love we can muster, because our children deserve our best. Sometimes I wonder if my tiredness is not strictly physical but mental as well. Can anyone feel tired because their mind is? Post Views: 1,388Read More →

As many bereaved moms know, the grief over the loss of our children is not something we can ever “let go”, “get over”, or “forget about it”. We understand that it may be uncomfortable for people when we mention their name, but the wrong response to hearing our child’s name is not one of these somewhat canned statements that pretty much tell us to stop talking about it. I could not forget holding my dead newborn if I tried, so to tell me his life was so unimportant that he should be forgotten it’s a horrible thing to say, no matter how well meaning or kind you tried to be while saying. It cannot be done, plain and simple. The truth is, this was not a minor event in my life. I did not lose a fish, or a precious handbag. My favorite piece of clothing did not get ripped. My diamondRead More →

Happy Mother’s Day everyone! In honor of all Mothers who had to give their children back, and as my way of paying it forward and my gift to all of you, I am offering my book ‘Losing Alex’ for the kindle for FREE for a few days. Here’s the Link —> Losing Alex <— (or you can click on the cover image) If you do not have a kindle it’s OK, there are free kindle reading apps for smartphones, tablets, PCs/Macs and even a free kindle reader app for your browser. http://www.amazon.com/gp/feature.html?docId=1000493771 Love & Light and Happy Mother’s Day! Post Views: 582Read More →

I don’t know if it’s because Nicky is getting older, EB is getting restless, I am getting older or what is the culprit, but I feel as if lately my fuse has shortened quite a bit. Of course it might also have to do with the election and my unrelenting disgust at all the lies being told by one Pinocchio who flip flops every two minutes depending on who is listening. At least I can look forward to that being over in a month. All I know is that I had to stop drinking wine, or my occasional bottle of Vodka because I felt I could not cope changing my son’s bandages without it. Only now I feel like I am going to explode. What am I going to do? I bought some sugar free lemonade stuff that ‘tastes’ like Margaritas, Appletini and others, without the buzz. So far IRead More →