It was a cold, rainy, foggy day when we left San Francisco this past February at the end of the shoot for Nicky’s documentary. We arrived home just before midnight, exhausted but happy. Nicky then slept for over 12 hours, as he often does. I was contacted by Barcroft TV Productions last fall after Kate, a producer, came across my book “Butterfly Child” where I wrote about Nicky’s life with Epidermolysis Bullosa. She wanted to know if Nicky might beRead More →

In exactly 10 days Nicky will be 20 years old. I have to let it sink in because not only this is a long time for a child that deals with this severe of a form of this condition (and he’s stable at present), but make no mistake, my rainbow baby was surely precious and wanted and cared for in ways I am not yet sure I managed to ever master. Yes, I am still learning. Nicky didn’t come withRead More →

I am in a giddy mood today (hence the cartoon). Nicky turns 19 today. Wow. Happy Birthday Darling! Ever since he was born we celebrated his birthday on Thanksgiving day because it’s so much more fun when we bring out the cake and the gifts while everyone is actually here. Not that we have that much family visiting, but at least his dad will be here, and this year his step-sister and her wife will be here as well. TheRead More →

I don’t take any perverse pleasure posting this picture, but I learned long ago that RDEB (Recessive Dystrophic Epidermolysis Bullosa) cannot be explained, it can only be shown. And even while posting this photo I cannot show how easily the skin peeled off, or how hard it was to re-wrap, as the upper thigh is extremely hard to bandage because the bandages themselves shift and move endlessly. I am not posting this to evoke sympathy or pity. I am postingRead More →

I came across this picture of Nicky the other day while transferring photos from one computer to another and I had to stop and admire it. This is Nicky, he was 2.5 years old, with a needle in his hand, poking his own blood blister on his wrist. Just the fact that I could trust Nicky to handle a needle at that age, when I could not dream of giving a needle to my healthy 10 year old today, speaksRead More →

I normally do updates on everything ‘Nicky’ on his blog at Caringbridge, and I do try to post there at least once a month, but sometimes I feel it’s a bit constrictive. A lot of my storytelling includes photographs and I am unable to post photos over there. Well, you can post ‘some’ photos, but there are limits. You can only post one per blog and it shrinks it down to a minute size. There is also a limit ofRead More →

If I had to pick the most challenging year of my life, besides the year I spent crying after Alex died, it would have to be Nicky’s first year. Hands down. I know. It’s apples and oranges. The year I spent crying over Alex’s death is completely different than the year I spent adoring and caring for my little guy. It was wonderful to finally be a mom, but the challenges I faced were so compelling, at times I wonderRead More →

As some of you may or may not know, my son Nicholas was born with a rare and incredibly painful skin disorder called Epidermolysis Bullosa, the Recessive Dystrophic form. He will be 16 years old in a couple of weeks. A photographer, a dear friend that I met at the College I am attending, wants to make a difference and help the cause, we need a cure and we need it NOW! She started photographing Nicky’s life and him livingRead More →