{"id":1035,"date":"2014-09-20T18:44:25","date_gmt":"2014-09-20T18:44:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/?p=1035"},"modified":"2014-09-20T18:45:37","modified_gmt":"2014-09-20T18:45:37","slug":"i-believe","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/?p=1035","title":{"rendered":"I Believe&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/09\/10175056_781918951831989_5110413486230406466_n.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-1036\" src=\"http:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/09\/10175056_781918951831989_5110413486230406466_n-300x240.jpg\" alt=\"10175056_781918951831989_5110413486230406466_n\" width=\"300\" height=\"240\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/09\/10175056_781918951831989_5110413486230406466_n-300x240.jpg 300w, https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/09\/10175056_781918951831989_5110413486230406466_n.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a>I took my son Connor to swimming practice today and while I watched him swim I was listening to my iPod. I have a playlist of songs on it, I call it my &#8216;fave&#8217;, it has over 2,000 songs in it and it plays randomly. When &#8216;I Believe&#8217; by Diamond Rio came on it hit me hard, and I don&#8217;t know why. While I was watching my son doing freestyle there were tears streaming down my face. What the heck?<\/p>\n<p>This &#8216;grief&#8217; thing is just bizarre. I rarely think of Alex and cry anymore, good gosh, it has been nearly 20 years since his death, but sometimes feelings resurface and I am a mess. It is what it is, I guess. It&#8217;s &#8216;okay&#8217; I tell myself. I am human.<\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s some of the lyrics that got to me and gave me chills as if angels were <strong>really<\/strong> hugging me:<\/p>\n<p><em>Forever, you&#8217;re a part of me<\/em><br \/>\n<em> Forever, in the heart of me<\/em><br \/>\n<em> I will hold you even longer if I can<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Oh, the people who don&#8217;t see the most<\/em><br \/>\n<em> See that I believe in ghosts<\/em><br \/>\n<em> And if that makes me crazy, then I am<\/em><br \/>\n<em> Cause I believe, oh I believe<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>There are more than angels watching over me<\/em><br \/>\n<em> I believe, oh I believe<\/em><\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/5Qb5HmyHTaA\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I believe!<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/2012\/02\/Animation170_silvia.gif\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-246 size-full\" src=\"http:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/2012\/02\/Animation170_silvia.gif\" alt=\"Animation170_silvia\" width=\"265\" height=\"155\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<div class=\"fb-background-color\">\n\t\t\t  <div \n\t\t\t  \tclass = \"fb-comments\" \n\t\t\t  \tdata-href = \"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/?p=1035\"\n\t\t\t  \tdata-numposts = \"20\"\n\t\t\t  \tdata-lazy = \"true\"\n\t\t\t\tdata-colorscheme = \"light\"\n\t\t\t\tdata-order-by = \"reverse_time\"\n\t\t\t\tdata-mobile=true>\n\t\t\t  <\/div><\/div>\n\t\t  <style>\n\t\t    .fb-background-color {\n\t\t\t\tbackground: #ffffff !important;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t.fb_iframe_widget_fluid_desktop iframe {\n\t\t\t    width: 100% !important;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t  <\/style>\n\t\t  ","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I took my son Connor to swimming practice today and while I watched him swim I was listening to my iPod. I have a playlist of songs on it, I call it my &lsquo;fave&rsquo;, it has over 2,000 songs in it and it plays randomly. When &lsquo;I Believe&rsquo; by Diamond&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[32,182],"class_list":["post-1035","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog","tag-angels","tag-believe"],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1035","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1035"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1035\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1038,"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1035\/revisions\/1038"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1035"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1035"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.silviaskingdom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1035"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}