“I have never had a day with no pain and it is almost torture to watch people do things that I know I can’t.” ~Sohana Collins (https://www.cure-eb.org/) This sweet and heartbreaking quote from a girl with EB touched me more than words can say. After I retweeted it, I asked Nicky if that’s how he felt too, assuming he would say something along the lines of “obviously”, but he said “No”. “No? What?” I was a little shocked to be honest. For some whatever reason I was always under the impression that Nicky was in pain 24/7. I always felt it was torture for him to just sit there while others did things, including his brother. I also never ate in front of him because I knew he loved food and not being able to eat it… you know… I try not to do it unless there is no choiceRead More →

I updated my Caringbridge Blog today (here’s the link–> http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/nickyz/journal/view/id/554ba814f02065dc3614f506) and I also posted a photo on my Butterfly Child Book Facebook Page and I talk about the pain and suffering that Nicky endures. It’s not easy. EB sucks. It’s been two years now since I had to start giving Nicky pain meds basically 24/7 and to me it’s a shock he didn’t need them all day before. He always needed them for bandage changes, but never at any other time. I always asked him what was his pain threshold, and as I write in the book, sometimes I am convinced his body is reacting differently about pain than a regular person, simply because his body is so used to it and has dealt with it since birth. Even when his body wasn’t so ravaged, if I had had the wounds he had, I would have been in hell. Now? IRead More →