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February 19, 2018

Alex’s Anniversary

It’s late February. It’s inevitable. Everything affects me more deeply. I find myself being more melancholy, my grief is more intense, disabling, confusing and all-consuming. My son Alex should be 23 years old in a few days. I didn’t just lose a baby these many years ago, I lost a...

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December 7, 2015

Nicky’s Big Brother

I don’t talk much about Nicky’s big brother Alex in this blog. Alex is my first baby that was stillborn at full term in March 1995. I may not talk about him, but he’s always on my mind. His loss is something I will carry with me forever. His absence...

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May 20, 2014

Return To Zero – My Story

I know for many, the death of a child, an infant, the loss of a pregnancy is unthinkable. Unfortunately for many, it is a reality. After I lost my first baby, Alex, at full term, I was shocked to find out how many women suffered such loss-the latest estimates state...

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May 23, 2013

Still?

In 9 days one of my biggest dreams will come true… I will graduate from College with a Double Degree in two areas I adore, Graphic Design and Digital Imaging. I will be official in being what makes me, ME. It’s a huge accomplishment.  I will relish that moment and...

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December 29, 2012

Babies are not supposed to die. End of story.

Ever since that dreadful, beautiful day where I held and lost my son, I felt a strong need to keep his memory alive. This was not an easy task. It was easier at first. People sent beautiful sympathy cards, flowers. Being part of a support group and speaking with other...

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