I took my son Connor to swimming practice today and while I watched him swim I was listening to my iPod. I have a playlist of songs on it, I call it my ‘fave’, it has over 2,000 songs in it and it plays randomly. When ‘I Believe’ by Diamond Rio came on it hit me hard, and I don’t know why. While I was watching my son doing freestyle there were tears streaming down my face. What the heck? This ‘grief’ thing is just bizarre. I rarely think of Alex and cry anymore, good gosh, it has been nearly 20 years since his death, but sometimes feelings resurface and I am a mess. It is what it is, I guess. It’s ‘okay’ I tell myself. I am human. Here’s some of the lyrics that got to me and gave me chills as if angels were really hugging me: Forever,Read More →

Last year I started watching a TV show called ‘Celebrity Ghost Stories’. I know what you’re thinking, especially the skeptics, but even if only 1% of these stories are true, it’s still a compelling argument for the paranormal. The most touching story I saw belonged to an Italian-American actor called Enrico Colantoni. I teared up watching it. This show, which became a favorite of my Connor as well, gives credibility to a perplexing chain of events I briefly talked about in my other blog a couple of years ago (http://ebmom.blogspot.com/2010/01/cant-help-but-wonder.html). Sometimes the answer to the question regarding these events ‘Am I crazy?’ is a resounding YES. Others I wonder why people seem perplexed when I retell the story. It’s not like I am inventing things. I could not ‘make up’ this stuff if I tried. So… here’s the story! After I moved to a one bedroom apartment with Nicky (thenRead More →