I made this video for my online “baby loss” support group 20 years ago. We all made videos to “swap around” with other grieving moms to help each other out. I put the highlights of my pregnancy with Alex, the delivery and the funeral and I put it to music. I am still not sure how I did that without a computer, but, alas. I’ve always been resourceful. That tape has been sitting around for 20 years and I never watched it again. Now that I am in the process of digitizing all sorts of VHS tapes for posterity I came across it and yesterday I was strong enough to do it. I still had to look away at some parts. I feel a lump in my throat that I can’t quite describe. It is what it is.
I made this video public for the time being, but I know it may be hard to watch for most, so if I get negative feedback I will make it private. I’ll see how it goes. Thank you so much in advance for caring about my little angel in heaven.
Here’s some quotes taken from this blog about Alex and his stillbirth.
Love & Light,