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February 21, 2021

Alex’s 26th Birthday in Heaven

The last week of February is coming up, and it’s always a somber time for me. 26 years ago I was 30 years old and nearly 9 months pregnant. I was so happy!! The crib was ready, the diapers bought, and I couldn’t wait to meet my little treasure. A...

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October 2, 2020

Why Pregnancy Loss Awareness is so Important

Just yesterday Model/Author Chrissy Teigen posted something on her Instagram account that blew me away. Her loss. Her Pregnancy Loss. The pictures were so devastating to look at, not because of the images per se, but for the memories they brought back in my mind from my loss, long ago....

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October 16, 2018

Speaking About Stillbirth Shouldn’t be a Taboo

October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, yet stillbirth is still one of the last taboos. The Dictionary defines “stillbirth” as the birth of an infant that has died in the womb (strictly, after having survived through at least the first 28 weeks of pregnancy, earlier instances being regarded...

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March 1, 2018

Happy Birthday Alex!

I am not sure I mentioned lately how much I absolutely love and adore my husband. He actually has a reminder on his phone to “comfort me” at this time of year. And he does. His strong hugs are so helpful to me I am not sure he knows how...

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February 27, 2018

Blog Quotes

The contradiction of it all is that parents of special need children find their strength not truly in themselves, but through their love for their child. If this election cycle has taught me anything is how to raise my standards. I see people go so low it’s disgraceful. If any...

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October 21, 2016

October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month

I can’t let October go by without posting at least “something” regarding either my experience with Pregnancy Loss or at the very least offer my thoughts on the matter either on how I feel more than 2 decades after my loss or the state of Awareness. Am I and are...

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August 17, 2016

I Will Never “Get Over It”

As many bereaved moms know, the grief over the loss of our children is not something we can ever “let go”, “get over”, or “forget about it”. We understand that it may be uncomfortable for people when we mention their name, but the wrong response to hearing our child’s name...

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May 24, 2016

Channeling Alex

As I said in my previous blog, my favorite show, Outlander, was going to have an episode about a stillbirth. I was looking forward to it because to date, no regular TV show in 21 years had tackled this particular loss properly in my view. There have been movies, or...

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April 15, 2016

The Deafening Silence

I came across a short movie (23 minutes) the other day, produced by a UK charity called “Abigail Footsteps” called “The Deafening Silence” and I just cannot get it out of my head. I’ve seen other movies depicting… or trying to… show the emotion and devastation of stillbirth, and while they...

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March 21, 2016

Alex’s Video

I made this video for my online “baby loss” support group 20 years ago. We all made videos to “swap around” with other grieving moms to help each other out. I put the highlights of my pregnancy with Alex, the delivery and the funeral and I put it to music....

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March 1, 2016

21 Years…

Twenty-one years ago the unthinkable happened to me. I was 9 months pregnant and on the day that I was due, I just couldn’t feel the baby move at all. The following morning, at the Doctor’s office, I was given the devastating news that there was no heartbeat. The baby...

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September 28, 2015

Losing Alex now an Audiobook!!

My heartfelt book, Losing Alex, which I wrote after the loss of my first baby, Alex, who was stillborn at full term, is now officially an AudioBook and I couldn’t be more proud and humbled by the amazing voice of Marsha Waterbury, for lending her talents for my story. It’s available...

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