Planning a year from now, a month from now or a week from now isn’t always an option. I make and break plans constantly because my child’s health can turn on a dime. We spend our days changing bandages, fiddling with medications, with needle pokes, blood draws & infusions and we measure milestones with wound healing and high red cell counts. One would think that after 20 years and 2 bankruptcies I would be used to this hellhole of a place where Insurance companies dictate the life and death of people, but, sorry, it still makes me mad. Quiet people live internally a lot. They write their feelings out. They also learn to listen, which is a wonderful quality. Look, I was not happy with the election results, but I care about my health too much to spend my time badmouthing, name calling or insulting others who don’t think theyRead More →

If there was one thing I’d want everyone to know it’s to please be aware that parents of special kids, especially those with lethal conditions, are hurting. Badly. So, when you see a parent pushing a child in a wheelchair at the grocery store or at Target, send them a smile, a kind word, anything. You will make their day. I will continue to research methods, oils, trails and anything else, as I must because Nicky needs me to be strong and persevere to give him strength. Often times I know I end up acting like his buffer for what lies ahead in his life, yet I know strength is the best gift I can give him. Hope is huge, it helps us moving forward, and if it’s wrong to hope, then so be it. I learned that negative opinions have more to do from the person giving them thanRead More →

I decided long ago to enjoy life for what it is, not for what I’d like it to be. People look at me and see the “together” image I’m trying so hard to portray. Maybe I hide it so well because I am so used to it. With Nicky, we’re not dealing with a fixable problem, one that we have the hope of treating and moving on. This is our life, 24/7 and for the foreseeable future unless a cure comes or a treatment is found to lessen the blistering. I wish I could say I was being dramatic when I say that Nicky’s medical conditions is serious. very serious. My entire life revolves around Nicky’s health and well being. People don’t choose the color of their skin, their gender, their disability, sexual orientation or the circumstances of how they were born. Rising above is not easy when society atRead More →