I Will Never “Get Over It”

As many bereaved moms know, the grief over the loss of our children is not something we can ever “let go”, “get over”, or “forget about it”. We understand that it may be uncomfortable for people when we mention their name, but the wrong response to hearing our child’s name is not one of these somewhat canned statements that pretty much tell us to stop talking about it. I could not forget holding my dead newborn if I tried, so to tell me his life was so unimportant that he should be forgotten it’s a horrible thing to say, no matter how well meaning or kind you tried to be while saying. It cannot be done, plain and simple.Read More

The Deafening Silence

I came across a short movie (23 minutes) the other day, produced by a UK charity called “Abigail Footsteps” called “The Deafening Silence” and I just cannot get it out of my head. I’ve seen other movies depicting… or trying to… show the emotion and devastation of stillbirth, and while they were mostly good, this one, in my humble view, is the BEST of the BEST. Of course, I am biased. You see, this particular movie, despite being filmed in a different country, depicts almost exactly my experience. There is so much in this movie I could relate to, it left me kind of speechless. With the sole exception of minor details, such as my mom being with me when theRead More

Alex’s Video

I made this video for my online “baby loss” support group 20 years ago. We all made videos to “swap around” with other grieving moms to help each other out. I put the highlights of my pregnancy with Alex, the delivery and the funeral and I put it to music. I am still not sure how I did that without a computer, but, alas. I’ve always been resourceful. That tape has been sitting around for 20 years and I never watched it again. Now that I am in the process of digitizing all sorts of VHS tapes for posterity I came across it and yesterday I was strong enough to do it. I still had to look awayRead More

21 Years…

Twenty-one years ago the unthinkable happened to me. I was 9 months pregnant and on the day that I was due, I just couldn’t feel the baby move at all. The following morning, at the Doctor’s office, I was given the devastating news that there was no heartbeat. The baby had died inside of me. “Fetal Demise”, they called it, although I challenge any mom 9 months pregnant to think of her baby as a “fetus”. We named our baby Alexander and buried him about a week later amongst grief that is hard for me to even comprehend, let alone explain. Alex became part of our everyday life. I have photos throughout our house of him or of meRead More

Nicky’s Big Brother

I don’t talk much about Nicky’s big brother Alex in this blog. Alex is my first baby that was stillborn at full term in March 1995. I may not talk about him, but he’s always on my mind. His loss is something I will carry with me forever. His absence is felt, yet his presence is felt as well. It’s hard to really explain what your heart knows without a shadow of a doubt. I know a lot of people have doubts about the “afterlife”. Do our spirits survive physical death? What happens when we die? Most people do believe in heaven, but have a hard time believing in ghosts and supernatural things. It’s understandable. It’s creepy. ButRead More

Losing Alex now an Audiobook!!

My heartfelt book, Losing Alex, which I wrote after the loss of my first baby, Alex, who was stillborn at full term, is now officially an AudioBook and I couldn’t be more proud and humbled by the amazing voice of Marsha Waterbury, for lending her talents for my story. It’s available on Audible at this link. It’s also available on Amazon at this link. It is an Audible/Amazon exclusive, so it’s not available anywhere else. Thank you SO MUCH for your support and I do hope my story helps another bereaved mom out there… Remember, October is SIDS, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. Love and Light,   Post Views: 66

Where to get the Best Deals for my Books!

I know everyone likes Amazon, but if you knew how big of a cut they get, you’d be surprised! Hence, unless you’re downloading the eBooks for the Kindle, the best deals can be found directly from the publisher. So, here’s the scoop on the best deals for my books! eBooks Kindle is the way to go for my eBooks! Living with Epidermolysis Bullosa & Special Mommy Chronicles are only $2.99!! Losing Alex is also $2.99 and for Prime Members you can borrow it for FREE! This is because it’s an Amazon exclusive! I also like to give this title away from time to time. Thousands of people have downloaded it for free since its release. I like to payRead More

New Caringbridge Blog and More News!

I just updated Nicky’s Caringbridge Blog this morning…. Thank you for your support and thank you for allowing me to vent. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/nickyz MORE NEWS! The Audiobook of Losing Alex​ will be available shortly. It’s so exciting for me! Also, I was able to lower the cost of my book Butterfly Child – A Mother’s Journey​ to $14.97 if purchased through the publisher. I can’t do nothing about the price charged by Amazon or B&N though, sorry. That is totally out of my control. That’s how much money they are making off my book, eghads! I am working on a “hard cover” version of the book as well, mostly for myself, but I will have it available for anyoneRead More

“Losing Alex” FREE for Mother’s Day

My book “Losing Alex” is FREE for Mother’s Day Weekend for the Kindle! It is roughly the first two chapters of Butterfly Child – A Mother’s Journey​ and it entails my journey of loss that proceeded Nicky’s birth. If you don’t have a Kindle it’s OK, Amazon has FREE Kindle reading apps for your smartphone, tablet or computer. Thank you for your support and Happy Mother’s Day to all Moms, especially those whose child they can no longer hug. Get it now! http://www.amazon.com/Losing-Alex-Silvia-Corradin-ebook/dp/B00ARZF6ZW   Post Views: 66

The Best Holiday Gift You Can Give Me!

From one crazy overwhelmed mommy to another, I need your help! The best holiday gift you can give me, in anticipation of my release of the book Butterfly Child – A Mother’s Journey (due out in early 2015) is a review of my book “Losing Alex”, which is a FREE download for the Kindle TODAY AND TOMORROW on Amazon 🙂 THANK YOU SO MUCH and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! If you don’t have a Kindle, it’s OK, Free apps for your devices and even your computer available here–> https://www.amazon.com/gp/digital/fiona/kcp-landing-page?ie=UTF8&ref_=kcp_mac_mkt_lnd Post Views: 24

Return To Zero – My Story

I know for many, the death of a child, an infant, the loss of a pregnancy is unthinkable. Unfortunately for many, it is a reality. After I lost my first baby, Alex, at full term, I was shocked to find out how many women suffered such loss-the latest estimates state there are at least 100 stillborn babies in the United Stated every single day. Yet, it’s a loss that nobody talks about. Here’s an excerpt from my book “Losing Alex” (available at Amazon) where I explain how hard it was for me to find any book that talked about this kind of loss: “This was 1995; the internet was not what it is today. ‘Online’ shopping was stillRead More

My Gift To You

Happy Mother’s Day everyone! In honor of all Mothers who had to give their children back, and as my way of paying it forward and my gift to all of you, I am offering my book ‘Losing Alex’ for the kindle for FREE for a few days. Here’s the Link —> Losing Alex <— (or you can click on the cover image) If you do not have a kindle it’s OK, there are free kindle reading apps for smartphones, tablets, PCs/Macs and even a free kindle reader app for your browser. http://www.amazon.com/gp/feature.html?docId=1000493771 Love & Light and Happy Mother’s Day! Post Views: 30

Let Me Tell Thee How Much I Loathe Medical Insurance Companies

Two years ago it became clear that Nicky’s power chair was on its last leg. The chair was 6 years old and it was literally falling apart. Not only that, Nicky was 9 when he got it, and he was now 15, he barely fit into the thing anymore. The Physical Therapy dept at CHLA started writing referrals to the Insurance company to get a new chair. Nothing happened. Several letters later, several appointments for measurements later, several phone calls to the insurance and a year and a half later, there was still no response, no approval, no denial, no nothing. It was like they were ignoring the whole thing. Last April (2013) at the yearly appointment withRead More

My Kindle eBook ‘Losing Alex’ FREE until Christmas Day :-)

Merry Christmas everyone! As my way of paying it forward and my gift to all of you, I am offering my book ‘Losing Alex’ for the kindle for FREE until Christmas day! Click here to go to Amazon… (a new window will open) or click on the cover of the book on the left. This is the book I wrote in an effort to share some light of what is like to lose a baby at birth, which, even in this day and age is still considered an invisible loss. Parents struggle with anger, guilt, and despair, often alone. I wrote Alex’s story (quite lengthy in its own right) as the beginning of the book I am writing aboutRead More