losing alex

March 1, 2018

Happy Birthday Alex!

I am not sure I mentioned lately how much I absolutely love and adore my husband. He actually has a reminder on his phone to “comfort me” at this time of year. And he does. His strong hugs are so helpful to me I am not sure he knows how...

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August 17, 2016

I Will Never “Get Over It”

As many bereaved moms know, the grief over the loss of our children is not something we can ever “let go”, “get over”, or “forget about it”. We understand that it may be uncomfortable for people when we mention their name, but the wrong response to hearing our child’s name...

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April 15, 2016

The Deafening Silence

I came across a short movie (23 minutes) the other day, produced by a UK charity called “Abigail Footsteps” called “The Deafening Silence” and I just cannot get it out of my head. I’ve seen other movies depicting… or trying to… show the emotion and devastation of stillbirth, and while they...

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March 21, 2016

Alex’s Video

I made this video for my online “baby loss” support group 20 years ago. We all made videos to “swap around” with other grieving moms to help each other out. I put the highlights of my pregnancy with Alex, the delivery and the funeral and I put it to music....

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March 1, 2016

21 Years…

Twenty-one years ago the unthinkable happened to me. I was 9 months pregnant and on the day that I was due, I just couldn’t feel the baby move at all. The following morning, at the Doctor’s office, I was given the devastating news that there was no heartbeat. The baby...

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December 7, 2015

Nicky’s Big Brother

I don’t talk much about Nicky’s big brother Alex in this blog. Alex is my first baby that was stillborn at full term in March 1995. I may not talk about him, but he’s always on my mind. His loss is something I will carry with me forever. His absence...

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September 28, 2015

Losing Alex now an Audiobook!!

My heartfelt book, Losing Alex, which I wrote after the loss of my first baby, Alex, who was stillborn at full term, is now officially an AudioBook and I couldn’t be more proud and humbled by the amazing voice of Marsha Waterbury, for lending her talents for my story. It’s available...

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August 31, 2015

Where to get the Best Deals for my Books!

I know everyone likes Amazon, but if you knew how big of a cut they get, you’d be surprised! Hence, unless you’re downloading the eBooks for the Kindle, the best deals can be found directly from the publisher. So, here’s the scoop on the best deals for my books! eBooks Kindle...

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August 19, 2015

New Caringbridge Blog and More News!

I just updated Nicky’s Caringbridge Blog this morning…. Thank you for your support and thank you for allowing me to vent. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/nickyz MORE NEWS! The Audiobook of Losing Alex​ will be available shortly. It’s so exciting for me! Also, I was able to lower the cost of my book Butterfly...

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May 8, 2015

“Losing Alex” FREE for Mother’s Day

My book “Losing Alex” is FREE for Mother’s Day Weekend for the Kindle! It is roughly the first two chapters of Butterfly Child – A Mother’s Journey​ and it entails my journey of loss that proceeded Nicky’s birth. If you don’t have a Kindle it’s OK, Amazon has FREE Kindle...

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December 14, 2014

The Best Holiday Gift You Can Give Me!

From one crazy overwhelmed mommy to another, I need your help! The best holiday gift you can give me, in anticipation of my release of the book Butterfly Child – A Mother’s Journey (due out in early 2015) is a review of my book “Losing Alex”, which is a FREE...

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May 20, 2014

Return To Zero – My Story

I know for many, the death of a child, an infant, the loss of a pregnancy is unthinkable. Unfortunately for many, it is a reality. After I lost my first baby, Alex, at full term, I was shocked to find out how many women suffered such loss-the latest estimates state...

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