March 2009 – Brotherly Love! Nicky (12 years old) is hugging his little brother Connor (5 years old). So cute!!! I love doing digital scrapbooking but I haven’t done it in a very long time… as soon as I am finished digitizing all my old videos I will try to devote a morning a week …
So… ever since the election I decided that my desire for sanity needed immediate precedence over the desire of being well-informed. Being well-informed nowadays, I found out, is almost impossible anyway. With the advent of fake news and the news biz in general being more interested in generating profit and viewership over reporting actual news, …
As Nicky’s 20th Birthday came and went, I am reminded of so many moments in his life where things were dicey. When I really thought he wasn’t going to make it to his 8th birthday, let alone reach his twenties. When he was 5 years old, in fact, he took a bad fall, which denuded …
Feel free to save them and share! To save the bigger version of the image, click on the image first to load it, then right click to save image. The past cannot be changed, it can only be accepted. Real friends heal, they really do. If Nicky’s existence has taught me anything is not to …
I’ve been working “not exactly diligently” in digitizing all my old VHS & 8mm videos and it’s a tougher project to do that I initially realized. I would have wanted to be done by now but it’s become very hard. I am very far from being done. It’s not hard doing the digitizing per se, …
September 1997 – The Theme for Nicky’s nursery was Pooh as it’s painfully obvious! I love how I set up this photo in his crib with all the Pooh characters. And that smile… it just melts me all over… More of Nicky’s story in the book… Thank you so much for your support!! http://www.butterflychildamothersjourney.com/?page_id=19 Love …
In exactly 10 days Nicky will be 20 years old. I have to let it sink in because not only this is a long time for a child that deals with this severe of a form of this condition (and he’s stable at present), but make no mistake, my rainbow baby was surely precious and …
I’ve been kind of “out of it” the past several days since the election. The day that followed I was in a daze. I cried and I couldn’t stop. The man that made fun of a disabled reporter was now president. What was I going to tell my disabled son? The man that hates immigrants …
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Last night, during a bandage change, I barely touched Nicky’s feet and he yelled in pain. I wasn’t touching a wound, mind you, I was simply “gently” feeling his skin. His feet nowadays are mostly healed, and they have been healed for sometime, they really look beautiful all in all, so I was a little …
I know I am beating the drum of Epidermolysis Bullosa Awareness every single day, especially on my ebinfoworld.com facebook page, but this cause is very close to my heart and it really needs everyone’s attention. There are so many conditions on this planet, many of them rare, and it’s hard to get the word out …
I can’t let October go by without posting at least “something” regarding either my experience with Pregnancy Loss or at the very least offer my thoughts on the matter either on how I feel more than 2 decades after my loss or the state of Awareness. Am I and are we moving forward? My answer …
August 1997 – Nicky and I on our way to my anniversary dinner…. Nicky looks so spiffy, but despite the smiles, behind the scenes, I was a mess. At this point I was taking Nicky to the Physical Therapist twice a week and she became sort of a confidant; I felt she was one of …
Feel free to save them and share! To save the bigger version of the image, click on the image first to load it, then right click to save image. Believe me when I tell you, never in a million years I could possibly exaggerate Nicky’s condition. I became the parent who hopes against hope despite …
As EB Awareness week is approaching, I always hear the “numbers” of EB being floated around. One official website states the incidence of EB  is 1 out of every 20,000 births. Another official website states One in about 17,000 live births. Yet another official website states 1 in 50,000. The truth is, most likely nobody knows for …
I am a very spiritual person. I grew up catholic and I have attended service at many different churches from many different denominations, mostly to satisfy my curiosity, so I am very well aware of how incredibly sensitive this issue of religion is. Your beliefs are important and they should never be belittled nor should …
March 2001 – I was thinking about this picture just the other day when we were driving back from Stanford and I was so happy to find it. Isn’t Nicky cute? “Casa De Fruta” used to be just a big fruit stand, now it’s a mini-amusement park, complete with a restaurant, rides and tons more, …
If there is a sentence I hear a lot from family and friends in general is how “strong” I am. Before the stillbirth of my first baby, before the miscarriage, before Nicky’s birth, I somehow thought that strength had something to do with “grin and bear it”, or having somehow the ability to have no …
Every person in the world has known heartache and suffering. Sometimes I think about the children with my son’s condition that live in third world countries, or countries like Syria, ravaged by war. There are so many people on our beloved planet that do not have the basic necessities, water, food, clothing, let alone bandages …
September 1997 – I love this picture of 10 month old Nicky with his dad, if only because of those BIG blue eyes! His poor mouth was in bad shape, he had already stopped eating baby food at this point and could only ingest liquids. On occasion he could chew on a cracker, but it …
Minnie Driver is probably my favorite actress nowadays. A few years ago she tackled a subject near and dear to my heart by portraying a mother who had a stillborn baby in “Return to Zero“. Her performance was simply phenomenal. She totally nailed it. Her character’s  experience was also fairly close to mine, and there …
Caregivers are selfless and do what they do because they love the person they care for, most often without monetary compensation. If you know a caregiver and want to show your appreciation, here are some ideas: Encourage him or her to relax by a gift of bubble bath items Pay them a sincere compliment Take …
December 2008 – Nicky in his Mecca! He was 12 years old in this picture at a GameStop at the Antelope Valley Mall. When Nicky was 4 years old I bought an old SuperNintendo so I could teach him to play Mario Kart; I loved that game! I thought that this is something he could …
Feel free to save them and share! To save the bigger version of the image, click on the image first to load it, then right click to save image. But in this lifetime, my purpose is my son. My purpose is to raise awareness for this awful thing we live with every day. “How are …